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2020 September – Week 37

I am learning a lot about myself this week. Lucy aptly named the fun facts “Tiffacts.” For example, I discovered that I like to narrate my actions to Sam in a sing song voice (I think he likes to be updated, especially in this manner). I also seem to dance during pretty much every household chore. And did you know it can take whole days for the dish washer to fill up when you’re living alone??

Coming home at night is a little scary, though.

Week Thirty-seven also saw the start of the new school year. What a weird beginning. Not bad. Not great. But certainly memorable. I’m interested to see where next week takes us…


Sunday

9/6/2020

I didn’t want to do much except cuddle with my wittle Willow baby. Brian and I agreed that Sam would stay with me and Willow would go with him. It was the best solution on paper, and possibly the best solution in practice. But closing her in the cat carrier was not an easy thing to do.

It felt so sudden. Which is ironic, since Brian and I started talking about him moving out back in March. I guess it was just so gradual, that it felt like it was never actually going to happen. Then when it did, it was surprising.


Monday

9/9/2020

My mom has been helping me make the place feel like mine. She bought this really pretty lantern from Turkey and helped me hang it up. The place is already almost unrecognizable as the space Brian and I shared. Which I suppose is good. If it looked and felt the same, all I would noticed is his absence. Now there are other distractions.

Note: The wall looks very green here. See the picture of the couch below to notice how different it can look in different light.


Tuesday

9/10/2020

Sitting on my back porch, I noticed the sun casting a shadow behind the fence gate that looks like a reindeer.


Wednesday

9/11/2020

Ashley and Nick have offered their garage for workouts on a daily basis. I can’t go back to the gym, even though it’s open again, and I’m finding that I don’t really want to. The vibe there is different now and I think it’s time for me to move on. Nick and Ashley do programing for clients in their practice as chiropractors, and are therefore are able to create daily workouts for us relatively easily. They write the WODs on the whiteboard in their garage, where they have all the necessary equipment. I have the code for the garage door and head over there when it’s convenient for me, often while they’re at work.

I’m very grateful to them for this. But Nick’s WODs are no joke. Especially when you have to go in the afternoon when it’s very hot and you forget your water bottle. It took about twenty minutes of lying in the grass to recover after I was done.


Thursday

9/12/2020

My new couch arrived! I got it out of the box and put the legs on it all by myself because I am woman, hear me roar! My Saggy Boobs pillow also arrived! Apparently when I live alone, I am hipster AF.

FYI: I have named the couch Ollie.


Friday

9/13/2020

Sam has been my faithful companion every day since Brian and Willow left. To be fair, he was my faithful companion before they left, too. But our bond seems to be strengthening. He doesn’t want to be without me. It is simultaneously sad and sweet.


Saturday

9/14/2020

Social distancing fail. Or, half-fail, I suppose. We stayed outside, and until this picture was taken, we gave each other space.

This is Ashley’s bridal party. She’s not getting married until next year, but she had us over for some food and drinks so we could all meet. I wasn’t amped up about the evening beforehand. It felt a little risky to me, and I’d only met two of the other girls on a few occasions beforehand. But it ended up being exactly what I needed. Everyone was so wonderfully nice and easy to talk and laugh with.

Sam looking at me, talking to Ashley: “This one’s a special creature. Where have you been keeping her?”

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